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Post by zara montes on Aug 24, 2009 0:21:48 GMT -5
It was times like this that Zara felt weak and pathetic. She couldn't even hold up against the harsh words of a boy who claimed to be her friend. She was breaking at the truthfulness, though. Most of what he said was completely true. Which was why it got to her to badly. She was so stupid for letting her emotions get in the way. If she was stronger, she could have found a solution to this whole mess. She could be happy. But she was not strong. No, she was a weak, pathetic mess who was crumbling faster than she could even hope to build the walls back up. It just wasn't fair. What had she done to cause her life to take such a horrible turn? She was a good student, she listened to her parents, and she had a bright future. So why was it that everything seemed to be working against her? Had she offended someone without realizing it? Or did karma just have something against her? Whatever it was, she just wanted it to stop. Zara wasn't completely against herself. She knew she deserved to be happy and to feel loved. She didn't deserve the bruises that she received so often. But it was so much harder to get rid of then everyone was making it seem. If Zara had had the strength to just leave Beau, she already would have. It wasn't so simple. Everything was getting in the way. Her emotions, mainly. The love that she felt for him was so strong that it could topple a mountain. So, why didn't it fix all of the problems? Maybe naive little Zara needed to realize that love didn't really conquer everything, after all. Maddox obviously understood this all too well. Which was why it was anger burning in his eyes instead of sadness. He knew how cruel the world could be and he hated it. Which was the big difference between Maddox and herself. Zara couldn't hate anything. Or anyone. And she couldn't bring herself to understand the cruelty of life. Once again his words cut into her soul, causing it to bleed. He didn't know how true his words were. Her silent tears doubled at his question. And she was sickened at them. at her own weakness. But then Maddox's tone took a completely different turn. Zara looked up at him, eyes sparkling from the moisture that resided in them. His expression was completely different, pained almost. He really was sorry. That much she could tell. She knew he'd never meant to make her cry. Just as she knew that Beau had never meant to hut her so badly. He stepped closer to her, gently taking her face in his hands. She felt no fear towards him, knowing that this act was a gentle one. It was comforting in a way as well. As his hands fell to her shoulders, she shook her head slowly. "No. No, you're right." She managed before she was positively sobbing. Her head hit his chest as she spoke again. "I am afraid of him. I don't know w-what he's going t-to do. And I hate it. B-but, I love him. With... everything I have. I c-can't hate him. I just can't. But I don't know what to d-do. I d-don't think I can take much more. He gets so angry no matter what. I don't know w-what I did to deserve it. And I t-think it's going to d-drive me crazy." She gripped tightly at his shirt while the words sloppily spilled out of her mouth. She just hoped he didn't mind that she was currently ruining his shirt.
STATUS: finished!
TAGGED: maddox kostos
OUTFIT: right hurr
NOTES: omggg. DX
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Post by maddox kostos on Aug 24, 2009 20:54:17 GMT -5
Maddox was known to be a bit of a jerk. He'd always had a way with the ladies, being either loved or disliked by them. It was mostly because he was one of those types of people that if he didn't like you based off first impressions, you had no chance of getting on his good list later. With girls, he went through them like it was nobodies business. This was mainly due to the fact that every girl he was ever with, he compared to Savannah, and no one would ever be able to compare to the perfection he saw in her. There was no denying he was in love with his beautiful best friend, and he would do anything to keep her happy. He would do the same thing for Zara, do his best to keep her happy, because Noah loved her, too. Just not in the same way, and that was definitely a good thing. But still, seeing that his harsh words did this to someone he was so close to... making her break down and cry right before him... It was too much for the boy to handle. Her tears dampened the fire within him, and he couldn't help but feel a terrible sadness go through him as helplessness rushed through him. Maddox's eyes stayed on hers, pain in his gaze as he began to realize that Zara was just in far over her head. Her situation was going to take a miracle to change. He just hoped, prayed, that she didn't continue getting hurt in the process. When she began to sob in his arms, his heart continued to break for his best friend. She didn't deserve this, none of it. Maddox shook his head slightly, hugging her tightly as his hand made comforting circles gently on her back, "You didn't do anything to deserve this, Zara. Nothing at all. I know you love him... and despite what he does, if he can still make you happy, too... I guess he loves you, too. In his own way. But Zara... this has to stop. He can't keep hurting you." His tone grew firm, and he continued holding her close to him, trying to slow the torrent of her tears. STATUS: finished!
TAGGED: zara montes
OUTFIT: right hurr
LISTENING TO: nothing.
NOTES: saddddd
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Post by zara montes on Aug 24, 2009 21:59:59 GMT -5
As said before, it was very difficult for Zara Montes to look at any of her loved ones in a less than perfect light. Mostly their flaws either went unnoticed or were completely forgiven whenever they occurred. Sadly enough, Zara was a rare specimen. Not many people were as faithful or as blindly forgiving. What had made her this way? Maybe it was the sheltered life she'd come to know. Her parents had done everything they could to keep her from the horrors of the world. As a result, she was left with the impression that the sun was always shining somewhere. And that everyone had at least an ounce of good hidden deep within. Zara didn't believe in true evil. Perhaps it was because she had never experienced it. And from the small amount of things that she'd heard about the world, she always seemed to find the moral side of the bad deeds. And so, when she thought of her friends. People such as Maddox, she never thought of him as a jerk or a womanizer. She only saw the good in him. Even when he didn't see it in himself. But she loved him, she truly did. He was one of her closest friends. Someone she would die for. What broke her heart the most in this moment wasn't what she was going through. It was simply the fact that he couldn't understand the love she felt for Beau. Why was it so hard for him to feel the emotions that coursed through her on a daily basis? Was he really that jaded? Perhaps it was merely because he was more realistic that the optimistic Zara. But it still hurt to know that he couldn't understand. At the very least, he was trying to be comforting. And in a way, he was succeeding. At least he wasn't leaving her to collapse on the floor. Her sobbing slowed enough for Zara to be able to hear him as he spoke to her, but it didn't die completely. As much as it was nice to hear that it wasn't her fault, she couldn't help but feel the exact opposite. "He does love me." She confirmed in a low voice. This much she was sure of. Beau did love her. "Oh, Maddox. I don't know h-how to make it s-stop. I just wish he w-wouldn't get so angry. And I can't s-stop him. I can't... I can't..." Zara was unable to finish her sentence as her sobbing picked up once again. The memories were now crashing around her. The way that he changed so dramatically in so short a time, the way it was so easy for him to push her around, and the pain that she felt every single time. She was starting to break.
STATUS: finished!
TAGGED: maddox kostos
OUTFIT: right hurr
NOTES: awwww.
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Post by maddox kostos on Aug 25, 2009 21:56:00 GMT -5
While Maddox liked to remain distant from most conflicts, this one was just hitting too close to home. As a matter of fact, it had dragged itself into his home and taken on a life of it's own. More than anything, Maddox wished he could just erase this. He wished he could erase whatever made Beau act this way. He wished he could erase all the pain he had caused his loved ones. He wished he could erase this entire thing from his memory and be replaced with a precious blank slate. But, sadly, this was not how life worked and the pressure of this situation weighed heavy on the young man's shoulders. He felt like he needed to take care of all the different women in his life, and he also felt like the way he was trying to do it currently wasn't working for shit. Case in point, this moment between himself and Zara. Yelling and getting upset with her wasn't going to help anything. If he stopped to think about it, that might be something he could realize. But he couldn't stop, because that brain-mouth thing was acting up again and it just wasn't something he couldn't control, as usual. Maddie's arms wrapped tight around her reminded him of the fact that this was his job. Comforting and protecting, not yelling and intimidating. He mentally kicked himself at a job well done in making himself an asshole. Her entire frame, which seemed so fragile and breakable in his arms, was shaking with the force of her tears. Of her pain, which she had been holding in and it was now finally coming to surface. His lids shut over troubled chocolate colored eyes. "Oh, Zara. I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry that you have to go through this." He didn't know what else to say. He couldn't tell her how to make him stop. He didn't know the answer to that. The only solution still in his head was leaving Beau, and he'd already voiced it. All he could do was comfort her now.
STATUS: finished!
TAGGED: zara montes
OUTFIT: right hurr
LISTENING TO: nothing.
NOTES: askdjfaskldjf. poor zara.
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