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Post by beau wilkerson on Aug 18, 2009 2:21:45 GMT -5
i don't know. i'll end up like him, i know it. desperate, and only able to hurt other people. hell, look at how i am right now. i think i know what i'm doing. but i will apologize to you, i'm sorry sav. you're beautiful and you didn't deserve that.
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Post by savannah munroe on Aug 18, 2009 2:27:00 GMT -5
right now, if you don't change this, you're absolutely right. you will end up like him. but, you don't need to. do you really know? i appreciate that, i do. but, you scared the shit out of me, beau. i'm never going to forget that as long as i damn live.
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Post by beau wilkerson on Aug 18, 2009 2:33:46 GMT -5
if that's the path i'm going on, there isn't much else i can do. people don't change in a night. besides, i get so wasted sometimes i don't even remember what i did. and stop going all psycho dr. phil on me, jesus. i know i did, i never meant to go that far, but i couldn't get a grip of myself.
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Post by savannah munroe on Aug 18, 2009 2:38:54 GMT -5
stop thinking like that! people don't change in a night, you're right, but at least some people put some fucking effort in. that's no excuse. are you kidding me? you busted a few of my ribs and you think i'm going 'dr. phil' on you? point is: it did go that far.
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Post by beau wilkerson on Aug 18, 2009 2:41:31 GMT -5
i don't know where to start. i put one step forward and two steps back. i can't be "fixed" even if people think i'm broken. i'm not a toy. i know, it was serious. if i could take it back, i would. you should have never gone through that. you should have never been with me, that would have been the easier route. but of course, we can't change that.
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Post by savannah munroe on Aug 18, 2009 2:45:15 GMT -5
you think you can't. you just need to stop hitting girls. period. there you go. you're damn right i shouldn't have gone through it. because even after i put up with all of your crap for as long as i did.. when i left, you didn't even care. at least i left. i'm scared zara won't.
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Post by beau wilkerson on Aug 18, 2009 2:52:00 GMT -5
you act as though i'm going to kill zara or something. well, i won't. things will even out eventually, okay? so i understand your concern, but it's not going anywhere for me. are you shitting me? you think i didn't care? you don't know what happened to me after you left. i was so, so angry. i drank myself almost into a coma, and then what did i have? nothing, because you were gone. i tried to keep you there, and you left. maybe it was better for you, but i can't let zara go. she wouldn't leave me either.
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Post by savannah munroe on Aug 18, 2009 2:56:46 GMT -5
idk. what if things get too out of hand one day? eventually better be pretty damn soon. yes. i've been thinking that since the minute i left. you did what? you never told me that.. i left. there. see? it didn't work on keeping me around. you say that, but a girl can only take so much, beau. she shouldn't be taking any of this in the first place, but she better be smart enough to realize she doesn't need this. and you better be smart enough to realize you don't need to do this.
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Post by beau wilkerson on Aug 18, 2009 10:08:38 GMT -5
i don't know. i never wanted you to leave me in the first place, but then again, i never meant to hurt you that much. of course i didn't tell you, you were done and gone and i was by myself. maybe i should go home and think about things. zara's coming over later anyway, my parents aren't here right now.
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Post by savannah munroe on Aug 18, 2009 11:57:13 GMT -5
i wish you would have. okay. but, really think about it, okay? nobody needs this. i care a lot about zara, but i also care about you, beau and you don't need this either. so don't just wander off and ignore we ever had this talk.
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